Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Cookies Are Not the Answer

Today has been stressful. Not so much stressful from without, more from within. Like, my brain took a string of nothings and turned them into somethings, and I had an existential crisis by 8am. Sometimes being sentient just isn’t any fun.

After work it was so hard not to go buy cookies. I bought fruit instead. I’ve been having those munchy moments where the cravings just get so bad I can hardly stand it. So far my resolve has held. Rather than focusing on how good bad food tastes, I’ve been trying to convince myself how gross it ultimately is, all the crap it does inside the body. It’s a hard sell, but I’m hopeful one day I’ll fully buy into it. It’s amazing how addictive junk food is.

I’ve read that only about 15% of dieters manage to maintain their weight loss. That’s a depressing figure, especially when I consider that I’ve never been able to do it. I’m not sure why I feel this time is different, but I do. Maybe the failures have made me wiser. I know what doesn’t work, and I’m trying a different approach this time. I also know I can’t stand being fat any longer. I have to get to a healthy weight.


  1. *hug* Sorry you've been having a bad day. I know how you feel, I hate those moments and get them too.

    Do you consider yourself to be on a diet? I really dislike the word, because it implies it's a plan that isn't your own and rigid rules have to be followed. I think healthy eating should become intuition through education on nutrition. You know cookies are bad, so you got fruit instead. That's amazing! Yes, you wanted the cookies because you are educated you chose fruit instead. Feel extremely proud of yourself, because I'm proud of you! Sometimes I don't have that kind of resolve, I'm always impressed and inspired by people who do.

    But yes, you're right, it is something you will have to "feel" and not force. You'll get there. I find when I'm working out consistently I want to eat healthy to not undo the work I've done by working out. I also like to fuel my body with good food so my performance won't be affected by the crap I'd eat! One step at a time, great job today. You can definitely do this. We won't be fat forever, we'll be fit and happy one day!!

  2. No, I don't consider myself to be on a diet because diets aren't permanent. It is a lifestyle change. Basically I feel I'm relearning how to eat like a normal person.

    Thank you so much for your encouragement. It means a lot =)